The Happy Pill

Unlike my previous post I am not always a bowl of sunshine. I do/have suffered from postpartum depression, I do/have had negativity engulf me to low levels resulting in 'leave me the hell alone' being said. I am not perfect as no one is, although it would be nice one day out of the year. HA!

It is a vicious cycle where I am ok, happy getting along with my life then my menstrual beast comes and turns me into a rage machine. I dont know how else to describe it. I get irritated, annoyed, angry, super sensitive to noise and touch. Not enjoyable for anyone. Instead of saying, "Oh it will go away. A few more days and the visitor will leave." I have made the plunge to see the doctor and find out how I can make my craziness better. Hoping for a happy pill.

Pills scare the cheese out of me and it is a big step for me. I am scared of the side effects, I am scared they wont help. I am scared of gaining all my weight back. I am scared. But enough is enough. I cannot go on letting these symptoms build and they do feel like they are building for the worse. My family does not deserve to be treated by this beast and we all deserve to be happy. Wish me luck!