The Happy Pill

Unlike my previous post I am not always a bowl of sunshine. I do/have suffered from postpartum depression, I do/have had negativity engulf me to low levels resulting in 'leave me the hell alone' being said. I am not perfect as no one is, although it would be nice one day out of the year. HA!

It is a vicious cycle where I am ok, happy getting along with my life then my menstrual beast comes and turns me into a rage machine. I dont know how else to describe it. I get irritated, annoyed, angry, super sensitive to noise and touch. Not enjoyable for anyone. Instead of saying, "Oh it will go away. A few more days and the visitor will leave." I have made the plunge to see the doctor and find out how I can make my craziness better. Hoping for a happy pill.

Pills scare the cheese out of me and it is a big step for me. I am scared of the side effects, I am scared they wont help. I am scared of gaining all my weight back. I am scared. But enough is enough. I cannot go on letting these symptoms build and they do feel like they are building for the worse. My family does not deserve to be treated by this beast and we all deserve to be happy. Wish me luck!

Positive Thinking, Speaking, Self Talk

I walk with a friend in the morning and it is a wild experience. This friend is amazing and I love her but she is stuck. Stuck in negativity that is. She has been reading the Jon Gabriel Method for help in weight loss and like any lifestyle change you cannot JUST read a book, change your eating workout more you HAVE to be positive and change your thinking.

Let's face it we are all fat for a reason. Whether it be emotional stress, depression, people nagging, addiction to food etc. there is a reason our bodies want to be fat and eat. We need to figure out that reason and instead of dwelling on it, repeating those negative upsetting thoughts in our head we need to move forward with positive thoughts. It wont be the easiest thing in the world but to be more positive is like giving yourself a new life, new meaning, and a fresh start. And you ARE worth it!! WE ALL ARE WORTH IT!! So get on the train to a new positive you.

A book that will help promote positive change is: 57 Things to Say to Create the Best Day Ever. Get it!! Write the sayings on post-its and put them in your bathroom, bedroom, office. I know I will.

Weigh-In Week 21

159.6

This weeks weight loss has to do with getting out and exercising and also catching up with Amy. LOL Seriously, she is doing amazing and I am so proud of her even though I only know her through blogland. You can eat the healthiest food ever but without movement you wont lose that much. My craziness slowed down a bit to where I was able to exercise. Exvercise I did for this week was walking with some jogging intervals and the Biggest Loser Wii. Planks are killer and I think that is Bob's favorite exercise. Stilettos also gave me a great workout. A day of stilettos equals burning calves.

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I am on twitter but I dont see what the excitement is. No one hardly talks or updates on it. Maybe I need to follow more people. HAHAHA! My Twitter info is on the side bar ------->

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I bought oreos to celebrate my weight loss today but I find myself not int the mood to eat them. RUDE!

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Soda has creeped its way back into my life and it needs to stop. We have the two-liter bottles in our fridge and I tend to go take sips every time I walk by. I mean it cant be bad if its just little sips here and there, right?!

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GIVE AWAY!!!

Charlie is having a give away at her blog and I will be darned if I dont at least try for it. Who cares if she has a bazillion followers I am going to try. Go to her blog to see the details but they are giving away a gift certificate to Mint Julep Monograms. The best part is they have aprons, which if you read my post earlier is on my wish list. So go enter to win!!!

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Here's to a new week, yee-spankin-haw!! ;)

Do You Dress Your Truth?

Have you heard the hype about dressing your personality? My mom found it through my sister in-law who I am sure heard it from . . . . . . . . so on and so forth. Side Note: My mom is always great about finding information to live your live to its fullest and to live to be you. She is an energy worker and a certified instructor in Quantum Touch, to find out more visit her Quantum Touch site. Anywho, she found this Dressing Your Truth and started telling me about it. I have seen it through the Green Smoothie Girl who had a 'Dress Your Truth' makeover with the author Carol Tuttle herself. It was an interesting video to watch. Another cool blog that has a bit more of an explanation on this wonderful book is A Mom in Red High Heels.

I went to visit my mom and she sat me down to figure out what truth I was and to see how it would transform me. I took the test, found out I was a 1 with a little of 2 but mostly 1. Looking at the color scheme that I should be focused on got me excited to go shopping, much to the husbands dislike. But it was amazing to see the change in behavior and attitude when I started to dress my truth. I feel beautiful, sexy and happy. I mean seriously check me out. lol Go check it out!!

Wish List. . . . .

. . . . . . for Christmas. I know some of you my say, "Holy Shiz, she did not just say the 'C' word." Yes, Yes I did. 6 weeks and 4 days until Christmas which equals something around 46 days more or less. Dont judge me I am not a mathematician, it is still coming no matter what. And instead of being all girly and saying, "Oh I dont know what I want. I dont need anything honey." I am going to put it out there or at least some of it that I know for sure. I am a selfish little spice girl arent I?! hahaha So as of this moment I know for sure these are the things I would like to have, I dont need, but I would like. I think it would really bring world peace if I were to receive them ;)

(BitsyBear)

I do NOT have any type of aprons. Scratch that I have a cute little half apron my moms made for me but lets face it, I get a little more dirty than just my bottom half. And I have come to the realization that I am done ruining my clothes for cooking. I am not going to stop cooking so the obvious answer to this problem is to get an apron. The above pictured aprons are cute but I was liking the ones here and here and the prices are really great. I dont want to be spending over $35 for an apron. Too much honey too much

(Things I See)

The second wish list item is a punching bag. I would definitely need to learn to punch better instead of just taking out all my frustrations on this beauty but that will come in time. I dont know if I am the only weird one but sometimes I get the feeling to hit something. It's a bad habit of course (that comes with my monthly visitor) and I plan on making it a positive force instead of a frustrating, angry at my depression force.

How was your weekend? Eat anything yummy? (we had homemade pizza) Tomorrow is weigh-in and I am crossing my fingers for 159lbs. It will happen and I am excited.